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Friday, April 27, 2012

Rivkin Center awards grant for cognitive study


CONGRATULATIONS DR. GRAY!


Heidi Gray, MD

University of Washington


Behavioral and neural indices of cognitive rehabilitation in ovarian cancer
Millions of ovarian cancer survivors live with residual symptoms of impaired thinking and impaired memory severe enough to interfere with basic activities of daily living and work. However, very little is known about how to treat problems in cognition. Pharmacologic interventions have only been modestly helpful, if at all, and not all patients desire or are able to take medications. Dr. Gray will examine the ability of a 7-week cognitive rehabilitation intervention to improve memory and thinking abilities in ovarian cancer survivors. In addition, the project will measure changes in brain activity patterns from the treatment using neuroimaging.

Marsha Rivkin Center for Ovarian Cancer Research | supporting research in honor of our wives, mothers, sisters, and daughters
The Rivkin Center is delighted to announce the recipients of its 2012 Scientific Grants. With another record-breaking year in grant funding, the Rivkin Center has awarded over $1 million in research grants to better understand and combat ovarian cancer. This year 3 Scientific Scholar Awards and 10 Pilot Study Awards were conferred in addition to funding for the second year of the two-year Challenge Grant.
 
one-year award of $60,000, our Scientific Scholar Award is intended to assist promising young laboratory and clinical scientists in pursuing a career in ovarian cancer research. For more about our Scientific Scholars and their funded projects, click here.
 
Christina Gewinner, PhD
Anne Noonan, MB BCh BAOBrigitte Theriault, PhD
  2012 Skacel Family Scholar
  2012 Gilman Family Scholar 
  University Health Network    
xUniversity College London  National Cancer Institute
 
one-year award of $75,000, our Pilot Study Program will support investigator-initiated pilot projects in all areas of ovarian cancer research. For more about our Pilot Study Awardees and their funded projects, click here.
 
Matjaz Barboric, PhD
Lavakumar Karyampudi, PhD
  University of Helsinki  Mayo Clinic 
Heather Cunliffe, PhDIlona Kryczek, PhD
  Translational Genomics Research Institute  University of Michigan
Tyler Curiel, MD, MPHFang-Tsyr Lin, MD, PhD
  Univ. of Texas Health Science Center at San Antonio  Baylor College of Medicine
Heidi Gray, MDMeera Nanjundan, BSc, PhD
  University of Washington  University of South Florida 
Shelley Hooks, PhDJeremy Stark, PhD
  University of Georgia  Beckman Research Inst. of the City of Hope
 
The 2011 Scientific Challenge Grant, a two-year, $150,000 research grant focuses on the origins of ovarian cancer with the goal of accelerating the early detection of ovarian cancer. For more about our Scientific Challenge Grant, click here.
 
David Bowtell, PhD
  2011-2013 Lester and Bernice Smith Fellow
  Peter MacCallum Cancer Center
 

Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Cancer Lifeline needs volunteers on May 18th


CANCER LIFELINE SEEKING A FEW VOLUNTEERS ON MAY 18TH


Cancer Lifeline’s mission is to optimize the quality of life for all people living with cancer

Volunteer at Cancer Lifeline
Date: Friday, May 18 2012
Time: 10am-4pm
Number of volunteers needed: 4-10
Contact: Amanda Boyle, Development Manager at Cancer Lifeline
            206-832-1273 or aboyle@cancerlifeline.org

Description of what we will be doing:
Help to beautify the healing gardens at Cancer Lifeline. We have three gardens on the upper floor that need renovation and care. We have one additional garden on the lower level which also needs attention.

 Here are a few tasks that need to be done for the facility:
  • Weed and tidy garden beds
  • Pressure wash decking and chairs on all decks
  • Sweep decks
  • Paint awning/pergola a new color, scrape any excess paint.
  • In downstairs garden, sand and treat the wooden pergola. Remove current vines.
  • Clean candle lamps in meditation garden
  • Refinish and sand benches
  • Plant new items for summer
  • Replace soil
  • Clean fountains
  • Trim back leaves, branches, and climbing vines as necessary
How it benefits the community and Cancer Lifeline:

Our healing gardens are an important aspect of Cancer Lifeline because it provides participants and building visitors with a lovely outdoor space to call their own. After dealing with heavy thoughts and burdens about a cancer diagnosis, these gardens can provide a new kind of reflection through calming fountains, sunshine and conversation in the outdoors. Cancer Lifeline is a special place of sanctuary and healing; we’d like to preserve its special quality for years to come with garden beautification efforts.   

The gardens were designed and installed by the U of W’s Landscape Architecture students. Planning the Healing Gardens was an amazing experience for students, clients and staff.
The Celebration Garden (first garden – west-at top of back staircase)

Theme: there are often many things—small and big that can be celebrated in the process of healing. This is our “clients’ garden.”

A horticultural therapist planted different herbs as the basis for client and staff involvement in this garden. 

The Reflection Garden (second garden-west)

Theme: Healing can take place through reflection and meditation


The fountain – a wonderful cascade of soothing sound – was built in honor of our Executive Director Emeritus’ husband.  There is a feeling of tranquility with the soft murmur of the bamboo plants, a wonderful quiet space.

 The Earth and Sky Garden  (largest garden-east)

Theme: the connection between healing, and the earth and sky

Our largest garden, fitting for classes outdoors or for a lunchtime meet-up for clients.

 Lower Level Garden  (smallest garden, south side of building lower level)

    A bench and a wooden pergola provide a nice sanctuary to the building.

http://www.cancerlifeline.org/

Cancer Lifeline is very dear to my heart.  

If you are in the Seattle area and have some time to help, please join us! 

Peace to you.


Thursday, April 19, 2012

New OC NON-Screening Guidelines abandon women

http://www.cnn.com/2012/04/13/health/ovarian-cancer-test-brawley/index.html

I have been thinking about the results of the Ovarian Cancer Screening guidelines for several days.  Today I am finally going to share my gut feelings about this.  Although I respect the medical community and their research, I believe that at the end of the day, this is a total abandonment of women and will kill many.

The truth is that the only reliable way to detect the early stages of ovarian cancer is via an expensive PET scan or other equally complex scanning.  A CT scan is not reliable.  A blood test is not reliable. A transvaginal ultrasound is not reliable.  A bi-manual pelvic exam is not reliable.  BUT...any screening is better than no screening!

How do I know that PET scan is reliable?  My brilliant amazing gyn-oncologist spotted a suspicious situation with a tumor on my liver via a CT scan and ordered a PET scan.  The PET scan ironically revealed that the liver tumor was not active, but there were THREE other active tumors, breathing, living, ready to mature into larger tumors at some point in the future.  It is a miracle that my recurrence was caught in the early stages.

My CA125 was only 15.  I had no unusual symptoms other than increased fatigue.  My constant abdominal pain is not anymore a symptom because it is constant.

My stand is this:  Either we allow all women, and I mean ALL women, the opportunity to receive a PET scan if there are any subtle signs of ovarian cancer, (not just the big 4, but weird abdominal pain, low back pain, unusual bleeding, increased fatigue)  and make it affordable............

OR

We declare that all ovarian cancer is a chronic condition so that we can apply for benefits to live what is left of our lives in dignity.

We can only apply for a limited number of benefits while in active treatment (corrected comment).  When we are declared NED, we cannot apply for new benefits, but we can keep benefits we have.  The problem is that this disease does make us less able to work full time and the medical expenses are ridiculous.

I am so grateful to have this time now, even in a recurrence and being on chemo.  BUT, I am not really living the life that I'd like.  I also want to add that I am not saying that I have no control over my future or anything like that, but it is very difficult to be a cancer patient, find work and keep it.  So, yes we do need to reach inside and find our entrepreneurial spirit.........and I am on a mission of raising awareness.  But if this is really true, that the recommendation is that there be no real active screening, than it is almost a certainty that all ovarian cancer diagnosis will be advanced.

There is this false belief that people with cancer somehow find a way to live their last years checking off the items on their bucket list.  Well that is great, but it takes money.

I had to go back to work before I could do some of the travelling that I wanted to do.  Now all I can do is just do all I can to keep my little part time job so that I can keep my apartment and car and do little things.  I am not starving, and am getting by, thank God!  But, really?  Is this it?  The rest of my life is going to be spent paying bills to get chemo to live to pay bills to get chemo to live to pay bills.

The extra money (like thousands of dollars and free time) to travel, just be next to a dolphin once, take a month and travel, see a broadway show, take my mom on a short cruise, yada yada yada.....well I'll pry have to write my novel and make the money to do that because what I'm doing now won't cut it.

My point is that if the CA125 had been given to me at the time the oncologist in California denied it, I could have been detected at an earlier stage.  Thusly I would have not had as complicated of a surgery and maybe not needed chemo.  That would in turn have created a body that would be better able to work a higher paying job that could have created a better lifestyle with more flexibility.  I didn't even get a CT scan of my pelvis when I had glaring symptoms!

At the end of the day, the new guidelines say not to screen for ovarian cancer. The result is that insurance companies can now deny payment for legitimate screening tests and women will only be diagnosed with advanced ovarian cancer.

I am not being negative, I am saying we need to fight for what we know works!  It will be decades before a blood test is proven reliable.

A PET scan does work and we need them to be readily available and affordable.  That's it, that's the only solution we have that will work until scientists come up with a blood test or something less complex.

PET scans do have some risks, but really it's minor compared to death.

That's where I stand.




Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Crying all day



Today has been horrible.  It hit me like a brick that being compromised, not able to do all that a person wants to do in life, when it comes to being with the people you love, is just devastating.  I had been crying and crying and crying and praying for God to give my mom just a few days of freedom from her trials and angst.

It all started with the image of my mom being able to drive her grand kids to a vacation park, play in the sand or have a picnic in the mountains.  For some reason this image caused an emotional break today.  A total collapse.

A miracle happened.  She called to say that her kidneys are doing better.  There is a possibility that she may be able to take a break from dialysis.  WOW  Now this needs to be tested and be verified, but even a little break would improve everything.  She is so much healthier since her heart surgery.  I have desperately wanted for her to have some normalcy.  I have been praying and who knows exactly why but this is such great news.  She is still in shock.  This is her above, isn't she so beautiful!!!!!!

When we go out together, and people learn she is my mom, the look at me like I'm lying.  Really?  Really?  They say to her how wonderful she looks!  They always think I'm her sister.

I have been really emotional all day.  AND I have this weird numbness on my face.  I left a message for the gynonc, and I'm sure they will address it.  My right upper gum, part of the right side of my nose has been numb.  This has been since chemo, but it wasn't too noticeable or I thought it would get better.  Not sure.  Maybe it's just a dental issue (I lost a front tooth to chemo about 6 months ago and wear a prosthetic).  Maybe my prosthetic needs to be replaced.  I'm certain that is it............but it's just weird.

I'm feeling trapped and stuck.  I want to fly.  I want to run away.  This news about mom is just so precious and uplifting.

I created a little bluegrass station on Pandora, and I love it.  It's so fun to listen to bluegrass.  It's like so awesome.  It gives me little happies.

I am so so so so so so so so so so so so hugely happy for mom, thank you God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What happened to simplicity?

I am longing for simpler days and simple life.  Longing for less complications with everything from paying bills, grocery shopping, using my computer to just having a cup of coffee.  Everything is so complex and difficult to do these days.

Remember when you were a kids you had a circle of local friends who you went to see?  You rode bikes and played house and played store.  You built far away places by hanging blankets on the clothesline and told spooky stories.  You explored the local field and thought you were in another country.  You went to a friends house and waited for mom to call out your name for all to hear, "Denise come home, dinner's ready!"

I desperately wish that kids today had those "kinds" of days, to play freely and run around the neighborhood.

Every day we are here is a gift and we have to schedule every moment now, all of us do.  There is no waiting until tomorrow to find "a better time" to laugh or shine or cry or do nothing but enjoy the birds singing.

Today is the first day since my second round of carbo-drip desensitization that I have felt good enough to get out and about. It's been tiring but full.  Got to see mom, went shopping and had coffee.  That was super great.  Just to sit at the coffee house and watch people and sip sip sip.  I then did my job from home and am exhausted, but OK.

Do all  cancer patients go through this? Sometimes all I can do is think about my past mistakes and just tear my hair out wishing for second chances or a new opportunity.  But those moments are gone.

I am loved by so many amazing people, but I am not sure I'll ever be able to accomplish anything worthy of being proud.  Just living, literally.  In this world of over achievers and extreme artists, athletes, intellects, scientists, filmmakers, geeks and doctors, I am but a simpleton.  All I have to offer is my heart and I hope that will do.

My not having any children to help me as I age, I fear, has placed a level of worry on others that was never intended.  We never expect ourselves to be "in need".  Luckily I have an amazing family and circle of friends who are willing to help me if I need it.

Never allow a doctor or anyone to tell you not to have children.  I never should have listened to that doctor when I was young, my whole life would be different.  I could have had a normal life and a family.  Some of you may not know this but when I first got arthritis at age 15, my rheumatologist told me not to have kids because I would not be able to take care of them.  Medicine for RA was bad and he may have been right, but that was still my choice to make, and I let him make if for me.  I was never the same after that and was and felt abnormal.  I still cannot get over the irony that I have ovarian cancer when I had been told not to have kids.  If I would have been given the option to remove my ovaries ( especially now knowing that I have the BRCA 1 mutation) I would not have gotten ovarian cancer.

Sorry, I guess I'm not over that ....................sorry for the repetition.  I just don't understand the cruelty.

I didn't want to heal from cancer to be thrown back into the rat race!  I just can't resolve this inner turmoil of needing money to pay bills to exist to pay bills which need money. I don't want all this chemo to be wasted on a life of meaningless daily drills of bills and pills.  I must nourish my creative spirit now.

I am going to write a book, I have a very unique experience that needs to be told, that you don't know about yet..ha ha ha. That is all I have to offer.

That is the only creative thing I can do....my hands are crap, can't paint.  Can't draw, can't sing. but do love to dance.  Seriously, my hands are bad and using them to create won't work.  Maybe I can paint with my feet.  Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Anyway, you may have figured out that chemo has an effect on our emotions and I am praying to make a difference. I tend to ramble when I have so many conflicting emotions inside.

I just wish things could be simple...............I pray each of  you can find peace and simplicity and hang onto it forever.  Love your family more than anything...........

Love and kisses and thanks for putting up with me.......my kitty Marilyn says hi tooooooo

Monday, April 09, 2012

Up for more Carbodrip? Must meet Marilyn first, my kitty cat friend


Before I go into anything serious I just have to share a little video I made of Marilyn.  Marilyn is my new kitty cat, who was previously at a shelter and then a foster-family.  Her foster parents were so nice and took such wonderful care of her.  Marilyn is so sweet and a true little lady.  She is polite and clean and really amazing.  She loves to play with her birdie toy and most of all she loves to be cuddly.  Exactly the kind of cat I wanted.  Being back in Chemo-ville creates a bit of anxiety and expected fears and loneliness.  It’s just part of the overall scope of symptoms of chemo, and cancer.  I believe in the healing powers of pets and the perfect little angel fell into my life. 

My Sweet Marilyn, she is six years old and comes from a foster  family.  Originally found wandering in Seattle, and taken to a shelter.  I am blessed to have my little friend.
 I apologize, I have been trying like crazy to upload several very cute videos of her, but we will have to wait. On my Facebook page there is an adorable play session, and I'd encourage you to check it out.  

I hope that you all had a beautiful Easter Holiday. 

Monday morning I go to the hospital for my second cup of carbodrip, with cream of course.  I have been keeping busy today, reflecting on the message of Easter and feeling warmth knowing that we are in a time of rebirth and renewal.  We have new opportunities to clean up our messes and start fresh.  Isn’t that just amazing?

I was fortunate to go to Easter Vigil on Saturday night.  All I can say is that I really needed to go.  It felt so good and I am so grateful to be here.

I wanted to share with you some of the reasons why people support and have joined the cause 
“Turn Facebook Teal to Heal in September”.  I spent a lot of time on Saturday catching up with the members and sending out a few notes.   

WHY PEOPLE ARE SUPPORTING THIS CAUSE: 

I am a cancer survivor myself and would like to see something done with this silent disease...it has taken so many lives and caused so much pain. I want to do anything in my power to change this and would like the love and support of family and friends to share in the support

I lost my grandmother to ovarian cancer, and would like to make others aware of this terrible disease.

I lost my Aunt to ovarian cancer & I pray every day for a cure so one day no one will ever have to feel the pain of losing the ones they love in such an awful way!!

I am an Ovarian Cancer Survivor. Stage 1a. I am one of the lucky ones. We need to get the word out. Early Detection is key.ave lost way too many friends from the hideous illness called Cancer !!

I lost my mom to ovarian cancer

I am in my 3rd year of remission, always a fighter, I now fight for me and all those still fighting, and for our angels who got wings we will always love and remember the fight you all fought.

I am facing a terminal illness, it is time to act. Get with a program and support it however, you can.
-Carol Lyn Wnuk



Ovarian Cancer took my sister 02/02/2010.

I have seen the human body and spirit ravished by this evasive disease. The cure for Ovarian cancer may open the door to the cure for other dream killing disease within the body. 
Carol Wnuk


I want to raise awareness to help more victims become 
survivors like my sister.

I lost my Mom to Ovarian Cancer and I want to find I way 
to stop it from taking any more amazing women

In support of my dear friend Jessica xo

I am an ovarian cancer survivor of 3 yrs. I want to spread the awareness so no other woman has to suffer from this hideous disease! Lets put teal on the map so everyone knows what this color means without having to ask!!






I am a 25 yr survivor and blessed with a Beautiful 21 yr old daughter.Just wanted to let women 
know you can beat this disease.

CANCER the most hurtful word ever spoken. It takes our loved ones way to soon and it is evil. Lets fight it together and try to beat it the best we can. I love and miss those whom I have already lost due to cancer and DON'T want to lose anymore. 
I shall stand tall!!!!


Because no young girl or woman should go through what I or any other woman has gone through from Ovarian Cancer. 
HELP US BREAK THE SILENCE!

My Mother passed away from Ovarian Cancer at the age of 55..that was almost 1 yr ago. I miss her so much.
I hope to help prevent anyone else from suffering.


These are just some of their heartfelt words......

I'll be in hospital til Tuesday, so long as all goes well.  It will be the same 
de-sensitization treatment as last time.  10 hours of chemo, yay.

 For some reason my CA125 is now 33, but I was told that was a reaction to chemo.  Oh well, that marker is not too reliable for me anyway.

I love my family, friends and followers.  Thank you God for all your gifts and grace.

Love Denise










Monday, April 02, 2012

Prayers for Heidi

http://breastcancerbladdercancer.blogspot.com/

My friends Heidi and Joe Hendricks need your prayers, Heidi's tumor markers have doubled.

They both battle cancer.  The link above may not reflect the latest update, as we just found out.  She has been battling breast cancer for eight years and she is still so strong.  They are a very active couple and have hiked what seems to be every mountain in Washington.  But her cancer has spread and her newest chemo has not worked.  Joe had a recurrence and has an unexpected surgery in the morning.

Please pray for them or send  your healing thoughts......I know some people don't believe in prayer, but none of us know the truth about God.  I never argue with people about God, because it is our individual journey to try to understand what is beyond what we see.

I believe prayers and healing thoughts work.  When my mom was in the hospital, I sent out a prayer request.  Within an hour she was more aware, and coming out of her fog.  Today she has so so much more life in her, and I can feel more health and energy when I am around her.  Maybe it was coincidence, but I just don't believe that.  I love my mom so deeply.

I love you for caring and for reading and for listening.

Heidi and Joe give nothing but love, and I love them.

Love,
Denise

Monday, March 19, 2012

I'll have one grande Carbodrip with cream, to go.

What?  It came back?  Can you repeat that please?

You're not gonna get me!

Getting real with ovarian cancer.


In this dream I was part of some superhuman task team, think "Alias" only my regular body, no amazing pilates body.  Our group was tasked to travel to another planet and board light beams that would take us high into the atmosphere.  The land was dark sienna in color, and each phase of the project took place in an auditorium.  We had to earn our light posts, and to earn them we had to compete against each other in small games.

My game was to see who could draw picture of a displayed make-up kit, in the fastest time.  I was wearing all black, skirt, hose, top, etc and little jacket.  We had cheap little clipboards, and were racing to see who could draw the fastest.  I won, and before I had time to receive an acknowledgement, I was forced to stand on a beam of light.  It was almost like a little hover board, made of light.

I soon found myself absorbed into a long line of others, on their little lights, ascending up way into the stratosphere, into another building.  The building seemed empty at first, but suddenly, I could feel a strong sense of urgency, a need to move quickly, to do something fast.

My hover beam moved me across the floor of the building, and I found myself again at the bottom of an escalator.  This time we were, one by one, slowly moving to the top.

At the top I was in a mall, and an old friend of mine was running, pulling at me to hide.  I ran to what I thought was a safe place, but it turned out that beams of light were coming up from everywhere.  There was no place to hide.

So I ran back to the area atop the escalator and a beam sucked me into it's force.  It shot me further up into the atmosphere, as high as you can imagine. It was my job to grab damaged beams and pull them back down to the main deck.  If I didn't do this fast enough, the force would not allow me to stop at the top, but instead simply eject me into outer space.

Chemo-nightmare

Today is March 19, 2012.  I was officially inaugurated into the chemo cup today with my first emergency room visit after my tasking carboplatin desensitization treatment on March 12, 2012.  I'll call it "carbodrip" for short.

My mom had been in the hospital with severe abdominal pain, just after a recent heart surgery, for 4 days.  She went home today, but I was not really ready to help.  My dear sister was with her from Friday to Sunday, and I stayed last night.

Mom is doing much better, thank you God.  I had a severe bout of abdominal pain on my left side, all over my back, tender to the touch.  My mom's nurse asked me if I was OK this morning, I said "no", and with little convincing, I went to ER at the hospital where mom was receiving treatment.  I wasn't much help today.

Without going into uggy details, I was super-dehydrated and not moving anything.  Super painful.  I was treated so sweetly, and the situation is partly resolved, but I have to drink, drink, drink, drink and take all my supplements from my digestive arsenal.  One of the worst effects of chemo is that it's like drinking cement, and there's nothing to avoid it.

When I got to the hospital on the 12th, I did start to get nervous.  I had really prepared mentally, but I still panicked.  Aside from a really late check in, everyone was nice, I saw my amazing gyn-onc twice.  She assured me I would be OK.

The nurse brought out a tool box full of pre-meds, to include things like epinephrin, benadryl, anti-nausea meds etc.  The process took about 10 hours, starting with teeny tiny injections of carboplatin, gradually increasing to total either 500 or 800 units, while being infused with fluids etc.  Ugh

I got the night sweats and chills so so so so so bad, I was drenched.  I was freeeeeeeeeeezing at one time.  Those are no fun.  My hot flashes have gone into overdrive since this treatment, oh goodie.

I have been medicated to the max this week........when will  poison not be an option????

The anti-nausea meds are great, and they lasted for a few days, but this week has been yucky.  Taste buds out of whack, lots of nausea, not as much fatigue, but definitely tired, and today's wonderful episode.  Forgetting some words, stuttering under pressure and emotional!

I have to thank Keifer Sutherland for "24".  I loved this show and watch re-runs on my roku.  This show is a saving token for me.  I literally forget all my stuff for that time, and just love the story line (not so much the violence).

But my point is that after this first desensitization, I have been crying when Jack Bauer does something honorable, or if a good guy gets knocked off, etc.  Weepy willows.

I'm just starting on this recurrence......hope I'm not a total basket case in 6 months!  Yikes.

Well, don't have to do the carbodrip until April.  Yay.  Thank you God for life, my family, my doctors, my friends, and that I can write about these weird things.  Thank you dear sister for taking me to the hospital and for helping mom when I can't be there.  I love you!

Monday, March 12, 2012

Chemo trip tomorrow eeeeeegads


When we were little, we went to visit my mom's parents in rural northeast Brighton, CO.  Grandma and Grandpa had a little horse farm.  My Grandpa liked to raise thoroughbreds.  I am in the middle of my sister and brother here.  This is their back porch and you can see that we are having a fun time, as always, when we got to go see the horses.  I remember vividly one of the horses was out of the stall, and out of the gate, closely following my mom as she was trying to scurry out of it's way.  Big horse...little mom.  Ha.

My mom always talks about the integrity of her father and how he shaped her to be a strong, compassionate, honest and driven person.  Those traits have kept her alive, especially in the past year.

Mom has another heart surgery this week, so I'm praying for her.  She is in great hands and I know she will do fine.  She is getting one more stent, and she'll be like new again.  Wow, unbelievable recovery.  Thank you all for keeping her in your prayers.  I am very happy that she has such an incredible cardiac team.

My friends Joe and Heidi Hendricks are doing double duty tomorrow.  They are friends on my facebook page and I have their blog linked, "When you both have cancer".  Joe is having surgery because of a cancer recurrence and Heidi will be receiving a very toxic chemo tomorrow.  Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers.

As for me, well, I go into chemo tomorrow.  I have to stay overnight at the hospital because my treatment consists of administering to me a chemo that I'm allergic to.  I am in a recurrence, as you pry know.  The three tumors are active, and my gynecology oncologist believes that Carboplatin is the best medication to treat me.  The process is called "chemo desensitization".

My bone marrow is weak, and I guess I cannot tolerate more than one drug at a time.  Supposedly carbo has the least toxic side effects and fits perfectly to kill off those unfriendly tumors.

So, I'm a little nervous, but I was told I'd be watched like a hawk.  It takes 10 hours just to administer the chemo.

I won't be dragging my heavy laptop around........but plan to give an update wither Tuesday or Wednesday.

My dear sister has been running her behind off helping everyone out.  She is so sweet to take me to the hospital tomorrow....thank you sis!

To all of you my peace and love,

Denise


Monday, March 05, 2012

Cancer is in love with me I guess, it just won't stay away

Please forgive me everyone, but my Cause page to turn Facebook Teal in September is missing from the blog.  The widget is fidgety, I guess.  It will be back soon.

The real reason I am posting is that I will start chemo again on March 12th.  As some of you may know, I had a PET scan on Valentine's Day.  That same day my dear mom had a mild heart attack, and thanks be to God, she is home now and recovering.  sigh

I have been "offline" most of the time since then, I mean, we all pulled together. What an extraordinary ordeal for her, that is a whole other post.  I am so proud of mom and she is here.  I am so happy, we all are.

Well, my gynecology oncologist wanted to see me earlier than this past Friday, but they said I could wait a little because of the urgent matters at hand.

On Friday, it was confirmed that there are three active tumors in my pelvic area.  I have no idea if the fatigue I have been experiencing is a symptom, but it was the first time around.

What is weird, and also good, is that this recurrence comes almost 2 years to the day from the completion of my first series of chemo treatments.  I got 2 years, yay.

The tumors are small though, but are growing and need to be eradicated.  Surgery is not really a good option, because there may be other tiny specs waiting to sprout.  I'm sort of numb and hopeful at the same time.

I think I mentioned beforehand that I am allergic to carboplatin.  Well, the best drug option for me is carboplatin.

I will receive carbo in a desensitized treatment protocol, in the hospital overnight, once per month.  This will last for six months.

I still have lingering chronic side effects from the first go-around, but I think I can handle this.  That is, as long as I don't have a serious allergic reaction.  If I do have a reaction, then the game will change and I don't want to talk about that.  New toxic drug that I may not tolerate either.........naaaa, save that for later.

I have so much faith in my doctor and my treatment team.  I will pry still be able to work part time, I pray.  I need that to pay rent..........so I have to work.

So life keeps moving forward, up then down, out then in, back then forward, and around and around it goes.  This is life for women with ovarian cancer.  This is why raising awareness is so so so so so so so important.  Ovarian cancer sneaks up on you and turns on some kind of chain saw to scare the heck out of you.  You make it through, but it's always hiding in the bushes or around the corner.  For those with advanced stage ovarian cancer, our lives are in a constant flux of chemo/surgery-NED(no evidence of disease)-chemo/surgery-etc and there are no good options other than prayer, supportive people, access to resources, finding really good treatment, and asking God for more days.

So my oncologist says she is very hopeful and confident that I will get another remission.  I believe her and will just accept that to be the case.  The next 6 months are jaunt off on a rocky side road.

I love you all..............will post more on finishing my trial for WALC study too.   Just wrapped that up this weekend.

Most importantly, my mom made it through her horrific ordeal in the hospital and is on the way to recovery. Just one more angioplasty to go..........

Our family is a good family......we just pull together and do what we need to do................

Peace and Blessings to each of you.........


Wednesday, February 22, 2012

A view worth living for

Mom's view from the hospital room.  Pretty nice huh




I apologize for not posting on any medium for over a week, it's been very hectic at home.  My dear mom had a mild heart attack and serious complications from keto-acidosis.  She has gone from ICU to a regular room and is about to be transferred to a step down rehab center located within a nursing facility.  Wow.

We almost lost mom........it was so scary.

It is a miracle that she has survived.  She had been extremely ill and had not called anyone because she hates to be a bother.  I called her after my PET scan last week and went over right away.  My sister was also calling her at the same time, so we were all in tune with each other.  By the next day she had a stent in her heart and did not get out of ICU for several days.

She is getting back to her old self and miraculously regained her cognitive and physical health.  She was so confused from the acidosis, she didn't know anything about who or where she was.  It was heartbreaking.  Her initial pain from other infections was crazy bad, and thank God she doesn't remember any of THAT.

I have been praying like crazy, and thank God that she has improved.  My sister and I have been keeping vigil, so to speak.  Rotating shifts, communicating needs with doctors and nurses.  My brother came out from Colorado too, which really made mom happy.

I am so thankful that we have all been able to work together to ease mom back into normalcy.  She has a ways to go but is out of the danger zone.  Thank you Lord for saving mom, for giving her family the ability to be here and be watchful eyes and caring voices, to be with her during this time of need.

I also got a copy of my PET results, and am scheduled to see my gynoc on March 2, 2012.  I do have a recurrence.  sigh

So, for now I am doing some research on possible clinical trials.

I have no idea what my gynoc will recommend.  The report says there are at least three new tumors with metabolic activity.

I am focusing on mom right now and am staying positive in that we found these new tumors early.  In my heart I feel like surgery will not be the best option because other implants may exist that could grow at any time.  I'll probably be put on chemo again.  ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh

But, really don't know, so it's best not to speculate.

For now, please say a prayer for mom.  We love her so much, she is such a fighter and so darn strong.  She is really motivated to get back home and improve her condition, she wants to be happy and live a normal life.

Thank you to all of you who are new followers on twitter and to those who are joining the Cause to Turn Facebook Teal in September.

God Be with You and Yours.

Love,
Denise

Friday, February 10, 2012

Did you get your bi-manual screening today?












Hello Everyone,

Today I have a lot of information to share, and hope that you take the time to read through the material.

The link below to the Ovarian Cancer National Alliance reveals three studies that show the medical profession is still at odds as to the best screening tools for ovarian cancer.  To me these findings are a little disappointing, only because we have to at least agree on the basics.  I completely agree that unnecessary surgeries are a possible danger for some women, but overall, if a thorough evaluation is done before surgery, the risk would be minimal.

I say this because the insurance industry and medicare need to know what can be covered and make a difference.  A real difference.

Medicare covers pelvic exams only once every 2 years.  According to http://seer.cancer.gov/statfacts/html/ovary.html
approximately 46% of women diagnosed with ovarian cancer are age 65 or older.  Think of all the women over 65 who will be diagnosed at an advanced stage because medicare doesn't cover this important screening tool more frequently!

I did not receive a bi-manual exam from my regular gynecologist and 5 months later I had Stage IIIC ovarian cancer and severe cervical dysplasia.

This hit me like a brick while being part of Survivors Teaching Students a few days ago.  Our facilitator was genius, a woman from the Ovarian Cancer National Alliance.  She kept talking about how important the bi-manual exam is and that it's "free".  The students appeared so interested.  I wonder if they were taken back though, like me.  It's almost too simple.  Sometimes we over-rely on technology........

This whole time I have been focusing on blood tests and trans-vaginal ultrasounds and CT scans.  We need all of the above, but the bi-manual exam is so important.  Our symptoms (see below) are primarily reflective of the displacement of the tissues and organs surrounding the ovaries, which is why interdisciplinary communication is SO important. Especially the GI doctors and the Gynecologists.

The facilitator was explaining that if the students know what normal ovaries feel like and where they are supposed to be, when they feel anything different, it can trigger them to look for more problems.

I never got the results of a trans-vaginal ultrasound that I had received about 10 months prior to diagnoses.  I was refused a CA 125 because of having rheumatoid arthritis.  I was told three times I was too young to have ovarian cancer.  If any of these people would have been aware of the basics, including the doctor who didn't even do a bi-manual exam, my ovarian cancer would have been caught in an earlier stage.

For women, early stage diagnoses of ovarian cancers can mean longer survival rates.  I try not to cling to statistics, but this is just common sense.

So if you are a medical student, please try to attend a Survivors Teaching Students presentation in your area.  It will make a big difference in the number of lives you save.  I was so honored to have a chance to share my story and the beautiful souls who participate in this program are just amazing.  I am so grateful to have had this chance and look forward to more opportunities to meet these incredible students.

The students are incredible because when they go to a presentation such as this, you know that they really care about their responsibility.  They are so busy, and that they took extra time to listen to us makes me feel good about their future.

Here is the link to the recent studies on what providers believe about ovarian cancer screening:
http://www.ovariancancer.org/2012/02/07/studies-show-many-providers-think-there-is-a-screening-test-for-ovarian-cancer/

Below is very informative information from Gilda's Club that provides support for bi-manual exams, CA125 and trans-vaginal ultrasounds.


Gilda Radner Familial Ovarian Cancer Registry

OVARIAN CANCER AWARENESS!

Ovarian Cancer Awareness

Cancer is a disease in which cells in the body grow out of control. Cancer is always named for the part of the body where it starts, even if it spreads to other body parts later. When cancer starts in the ovaries, it is called ovarian cancer. Women have two ovaries that are located in the pelvis, one on each side of the uterus. The ovaries make female hormones and produce eggs. 

Ovarian cancer will be diagnosed in about one out of 55 women (approximately 1.8%). Ovarian cancer counts for about 3% of all cancers in women. 

Ovarian cancer symptoms are often not taken seriously because they are similar to other women’s bodily complaints. The signs of ovarian cancer include:
•    A feeling of being bloated
•    Vague abdominal and pelvic discomfort
•    Gastrointestinal symptoms such as gas, nausea, indigestion
•    Constipation, diarrhea, frequent urination
•    Back pain and fatigue
•    Discomfort during sex
•    Vaginal bleeding

Although many women have these symptoms of ovarian cancer, they are often overlooked. If any of these ovarian cancer signs are experienced almost every day and persist for weeks, they could be an early warning of ovarian cancer and should be brought to your doctor’s attention. Gilda Radner had every one of these symptoms for over a year prior to her diagnosis. Early detection can make the difference. Over 70% of all women with ovarian cancer will not be diagnosed until the disease has spread beyond the ovary. This is because the symptoms of early ovarian cancer are often vague and can mimic other common medical problems. 

Unfortunately, there is no simple reliable ovarian cancer test available to screen women. Women need to stay in touch with their bodies and report changes to their doctors, because early detection is crucial. In a recent study more than 81% of women diagnosed with ovarian cancer had one of these symptoms before diagnosis. The Gilda Radner Familial Ovarian Cancer Registry has been recommending for over two decades that women experiencing continued symptoms of ovarian cancer have a combination of ovarian cancer tests that include
•    Pelvic examination
•    Vaginal ultrasound 
•    CA125 test

A Pap smear does not detect ovarian cancer. It is a screening tool to detect cervical cancer.

Ovarian cancer is most common in women who have already gone through menopause. The average age for developing ovarian cancer is 61 years of age. In families with two or more diagnoses of ovarian cancer, the cancer can be diagnosed at earlier ages, most commonly in their 40s.

Ovarian cancer prognosis is best when the disease is found early. Over 70% of all women with ovarian cancer will not be diagnosed until the disease has spread beyond the ovary. This is because the symptoms of early ovarian cancer can be vague and mimic other common medical problems. For the small number of women who are fortunate enough to have their cancer diagnosed before it has spread beyond the ovary, the chance for cure is 85 to 90%. However, for the majority of women in whom the disease has spread beyond the ovary, the chance of living for five years after the diagnosis is between 20 and 25%.

Specific risk factors or ovarian cancer causes are not known, but risk factors that may increase your chances of getting ovarian cancer may include:
•    High fat diet
•    Never having children
•    Infertility, or not having children until late in life
•    Using infertility drugs but not becoming pregnant
•    Starting your periods at a young age, or going through menopause at an older than average age
•    Use of talcum powder on the genital area
•    Caucasian race
•    Have an Eastern European (Ashkenazi) Jewish background. 
•    Family history of ovarian cancer, breast cancer, or colon cancer
•    Peronal history of breast, uterine or colon cancer
Of these ovarian cancer risk factors, the most significant is a family history of ovarian cancer and /or breast cancer (on either your mother’s side of the family or your father’s side of the family). Having one close relative with ovarian cancer increases a woman’s risk of developing ovarian cancer by nearly three times. Having additional family members with breast cancer, ovarian cancer or colon cancer increases the risk even further.

Most women with ovarian cancer risk factors will never actually get ovarian cancer. Even with significant factors such as family history, the overall chances of getting ovarian cancer are still small.

Fortunately, there are a number of factors that are associated with lowering the risk of ovarian cancer.
•    Use of birth control pills
•    Having multiple children
•    Breast feeding
•    Tubal ligation
•    Having the ovaries removed (prophylactic oophorectomy)

If you have only one close relative, such as a mother or sister, with a history of ovarian cancer, the overwhelming chances are that you will not develop ovarian cancer. However, you are at increased risk, and special testing by your doctor may be indicated.

Once a year to every six months the Gilda Radner Familial Ovarian Cancer Registry recommends women who have at least one close relative with ovarian cancer have a
•    Pelvic examination
•    Vaginal ultrasound 
•    CA125 test

There are almost 40 different types of ovarian cancer. However, nine out of 10 ovarian cancer patients have epithelial tumors, which begin in the tissue of the surface of the ovary (epithelium). These are called adenocarcinomas – a malignant (cancerous) tumor of epithelial origin which begins in glandular tissue, Serous adenocarcinoma is seen most often, followed by endometrioid, mucinous and clear cell adenocarcinomas. Carcinomas of borderline malignancy are a subgroup of serous and mucinous adenocarcinomas, which are usually less aggressive and have a significantly higher cure rate than serous and mucinous adenocarcinomas.

The only definitive way to diagnose ovarian cancer is surgery to remove the tumor for laboratory evaluation. Fortunately, there are tests to help determine if surgery is needed. In addition to a pelvic exam, pelvic and vaginal ultrasound of the ovaries can often (but not always) help distinguish between malignant and benign (noncancerous) tumors. Cystic tumors (i.e., no solid areas suggesting cancer) are usually benign. When solid areas are seen on ultrasound, the chances of cancer increase. CA125 levels (a tumor marker in the blood), which are elevated in eight out of 10 women with advanced (stage III and stage IV) disease and in one out of two women with cancer localized in the ovary (stage I), can be determined by a simple blood test. However, CA125 levels can also be elevated in benign conditions – endometriosis, pelvic inflammatory disease of the tubes and ovaries, uterine fibroids, pregnancy – and sometimes in cancer of the pancreas and the gastrointestinal tract. 

Stage refers to how far the disease has advanced. Accurate staging is important in treatment planning because the prognosis (outcome) worsens as the stage increases. Generally, there are four stages of ovarian cancer. 


Stage I: The Cancer is limited to the ovary or ovaries
* Stage IA: The tumor is limited to inside of one ovary
* Stage IB: The tumor is limited to the inside of both ovaries
* Stage IC: The tumor is limited to one or both ovaries. In addtion, it appears on the surface of the ovary, a fluid-filled capsule 
has burst or cancer cells are found in the abdominal fluid.

Stage II: The cancer is one or both ovaries and has spread to other parts of the pelvis.
* Stage IIA: The tumor has spread to the uterus, fallopian tubes or both
* Stage IIB: The cancer has spread to the bladder, rectum or colon 
* Stage IIC: The cancer tumor has spread to any of the above. Also, it appears on the surface of the ovary, a fluid-filled capsule
has burst or cancer cells are found in the abdominal fluid.

Stage III: The cancer is in one or both ovaries and has spread to nearby lymph nodes or other abdominal organs, not including the liver
* Stage IIIA: The tumor has spread to the lining of the abdomen but cannot be seen. The cancer has not spread to the lymph 
nodes
* Stage IIIB: The cancer has sprread to the abdomen and is visible (less than two centimeters, about 3/4 of an inch in size).
The cancer has not spread to the lymph nodes.
* Stage IIIC: The cancer has spread into the abdomen and the deposits measure largers than two centimeters. The cancer has 
spread to the lymph nodes.

Stage IV: The cancer has spread to the lung, liver or other distant organs.

Recurrent Ovarian Cancer: The cancer has come back after it has been treated. It may appear in other parts of the body, but is still considered ovarian cancer.

Surgery is needed for all stages of ovarian cancer, and when the surgeon (gynecologic oncologist) can document that cancer is limited to the ovary, it may be the only treatment needed. To document this, four areas within the abdominal cavity are evaluated: 1) the under-surface of the diaphragm; 2) the omentum (a fatty apron that hangs down from the colon); 3) lymph nodes along the abdominal aorta; and 4) pelvic lymph nodes. The abdominal cavity is also washed with a saline solution and the cells are stained to identify floating cancer cells not visible to the naked eye. For stages II, III, and IV, maximal tumor removal, ideally when surgery is performed by a gynecologic oncologist, results in the best survival rate.

Most women will get chemotherapy. The most important chemotherapy (drug treatment) agents for ovarian cancer are Platinum compounds and Taxanes. These medications are usually given intravenously (through a vein) every three to four weeks, for six treatments. Patients are evaluated at each treatment and have a pelvic examination, C125 test and blood work. If the CA125 level was elevated before, and is falling during chemotherapy, the treatment is almost certainly effective. If the CA125 level rises significantly during chemotherapy, it usually means that the treatment is not effective. Some women receive intra-peritoneal chemotherapy (through a small catheter inserted into their abdominal [peritoneal] cavity). Intraperitoneal chemotherapy is often used when only very small deposits of cancer remain within the abdominal cavity after primary surgery.

There are other promising chemotherapy drugs available. Topotecan, Gemcitabine, Hexamethylmelamine, Tamoxifen, Doxil, or oral etoposide are effective in some women. In some patients, newer agents such as Avastin (an anti-angiogenic agent), are used to cut off blood supply to the tumor.

The BRCA1 and BRCA2 genes are responsible for many cases of familial ovarian cancer and familial breast cancer. Genes are small pieces of DNA, the material that acts as a master “blueprint” for all the cells in your body. Your genes determine such things as what color hair and eyes you have, how tall you are, and what you look like on the inside. They also instruct the body how to build all the chemical substances in your body that keep you running smoothly. Sometimes there is an error in one of your genes that causes it not to do its job properly. This can lead to disease and is called a “genetic defect”.

The BRCA1 and BRCA2 genes make a chemical substance that helps your body prevent cancer. Most women have two normal copies of the BRCA1 gene, or BRCA2 gene both of which produce this cancer preventing substance. Some women have a genetic defect in one of their two BRCA1 genes or BRCA2 genes and don’t produce a normal amount of this cancer fighting substance. These women are at very high risk of getting breast or ovarian cancer, as high as 85-90% over the course of a lifetime.

You inherit one copy of each of your genes from your mother and a second copy of each of your genes from your father. (This is why you look about half like your mother, and half like your father). If one of your parents has a defective BRCA1 gene or BRCA2 gene there is a 50% chance you may inherit their defective copy, and 50% chance you may inherit their normal copy. If you inherit a defective BRCA1 gene, or BRCA2 gene, then each of your children has 50% chance of inheriting it from you. 

Although there is a test to detect a defective BRCA1 or BRCA2 gene, such a test is not recommended for all women. Women with a strong family history of ovarian cancer should consult their physicians about the test. It is best that genetic testing start with the family member diagnosed with cancer.

All women with a genetic mutation for BRCA1 or BRCA2 should consider removal of their ovaries after childbearing. For other women at high risk for ovarian cancer, because of a strong family history of ovarian cancer who choose not to undergo genetic testing or who do not carry a mutation for BRCA1 or BRCA2 should consider the surgery in a case by case basis. The removal of the ovaries (oophorectomy) can be accomplished as a simply outpatient surgery using a device called a laparoscope. There is only minimal discomfort, and in most cases a woman can return to work in two to three days. Because there is still a small risk of a similar type of cancer of the lining of the abdominal cavity, called primary peritoneal cancer, women who have their ovaries removed should continue to be seen by a doctor every six months and should continue routinely have the CA125 blood test. Women who have had their ovaries removed may want to continue on hormone replacement therapy (HRT), but need to take a cautious approach, in consultation with her own physician, due to the recent findings from the Women’s Health Initiative.

Women who have two or more close relatives diagnosed with ovarian cancer are asked to join the Gilda Radner Familial Ovarian Cancer Registry. By doing so, they can be assured of being kept informed of the very latest developments in familial ovarian cancer research. JOIN THE REGISTRY TODAY.



ABOUT THE REGISTRY

The Familial Ovarian Cancer Registry was established in 1981 by M. Steven Piver, M.D., former chairman of the Department of Gynecologic Oncology at Roswell Park Cancer Institute. In May 1990, the Registry was renamed to honor the memory of comedian, Gilda Radner, who died of ovarian cancer in 1989. Ms. Radner’s husband, film actor Gene Wilder, is honorary chairman of the Registry.

The Registry is a national computer tracking system that stores data for women with two or more close relatives who have been diagnosed with ovarian cancer and offers education, information and a Helpline with peer support for women at high risk (family history) of ovarian cancer.

The Gilda Radner Familial Ovarian Registry is pursuing research into causes of familial cancer in collaboration with investigators at Roswell Park Cancer Institute, Stanford University School of Medicine and Cambridge University. Our goals are to identify new genes associated with familial ovarian cancer, thereby improving genetic and psychosocial counseling for individuals and families and to characterize lifestyle choices (i.e., oral contraceptive use, hormone replacement therapy, number of pregnancies) that reduce ovarian cancer risk in women who may be more susceptible to the disease. We hope to acquire information that will lead to better methods for detecting ovarian cancer, for reliable predictive testing for cancer predisposition and ultimately, preventing the disease in future generations.

To date, the Registry has amassed the data for over 4,500 women who have been diagnosed with ovarian cancer in more than 1,850 families with two or more members with ovarian cancer.

Roswell Park Cancer Institute was founded in 1898 and is one of the oldest comprehensive cancer centers in the world. It is dedicated to providing total care for cancer patients, conducting research into the causes, treatment and prevention of cancer and to public and professional education.

Gilda Radner Familial Ovarian Cancer Registry
Roswell Park Cancer Institute
Elm and Carlton Streets
Buffalo NY 14263

            1-800-OVARIAN      
            716-845-4503