I would walk off of the elevator and towards a chrome plated reception desk. The smoke in the room softened all of the details, but clearly I was needed for an event. I would register at the front desk, receive my card key and sluggishly open the door to my room.
Inside my room was the home of my grandmother Archuleta. She was ill, and awaiting death. My job in the family was to go buy food for everyone as they pray with grandma before and as she passes on to the heavens. I saw people that I had met only once as a small child.
When I arrived at the market there was a sea of people crowding the fresh fish and meats. The fresh meat market rested alongside a beautiful white sandy beach. The water looked so refreshing, I wanted badly to walk along the shore.
I was ordered to purchase fresh shrimp and chicken. The meat market containers display cases contained an overabundant number of orange nets, they were everywhere. The checkout lines, outlined with those mobile strap stands that you see in airports, were like a maze. I got lost in the line.
By the time I made my way to the cash register the chicken meat had gone bad and had to be thrown away. Once again I had to go back and get more chicken. I got lost once again and the meat spoiled once again. The third trip was different. I reselected shrimp and took some other form of meat to the register. I cannot remember what it was.
By the time I returned to grandma's house there were more guests and still not enough meat. I was sent back to the market again. Feeling so exhausted, grieving for my grandma, fearing embarrassment because I could not remember the names of most of the relatives in the room. I did not return again until the next day.
I cuddled up next to my grandmother, said I was sorry and started to cry. This dream also had me staying in the same hotel, needing to return to my mom, my mom who I miss so much. I could not escape this darn hotel. I was mandated to attend a seminar by some guy selling some "thing". He was mean to me, berated me for not knowing information in his seminar. Horrible feeling.
Oh what a nightmare. I tried to escape. My friend from high school was there too, and she was distraught for she was also trapped in the banquet room. My mom needed me and I could not get to her.
I could hear my cat this morning calling for me, awakening me ever so slightly, but not enough. I felt like a brick of iron on a magnetic mattress. This is how all my nightmares are right now. Instead of waking in a frightful state I stay trapped in them, waking up in sweats at the conclusion of the dream.
I woke up today up at 2pm.
The first dream mom and I were on the phone. She was sitting in her car parked in the driveway. The sun must have been setting because I can see her there, squinting from the glare. When she was alive she would sometimes sit in the car to get warm as she was constantly cold.
She dropped the phone and it fell under the seat somewhere and I could hear her crying and panicking because she could not find her phone. I was telling her loudly, hoping she could hear me, that she would be OK. I told her not to worry and that I was there. I said not to cry, it will be alright. The dream stayed in that moment. I found my body frantically fluttering around in the car, as if I were a little butterfly, trying to console her. I must have gotten a phone call in the afternoon that finally woke me up from this nightmare.
The next dream mom was calling me from an elevator. I could hear the vessel's movement, continuous, going in just one direction. I feel like, because in my dream I was able to see her standing in the elevator, and the numbers were going up. She was on her way to some specific place, a real destination.
She was looking up at the red digital display, of the numbers changing, increasing one by one. She told me of the moment when the elevator went dark but said she was not afraid. She even laughed, that sort of nervous laugh that demonstrates a hint of excitement and joy. She told me not to worry. I just listened on the other end of the line. The elevator kept going up and up and up and mom kept giggling. I can still remember the echo.
The next dream shows an outside garden party There are 4 or 5 long tables, about 30 feet in length. Each table is covered with elegant white linens, bouquets of flowers, candles and china. The silver settings and crystal glassware shimmer in the twilight sky under the glass light bulb canopy. I believe the drinking glasses were rimmed with gold.
Sitting on each side of the table are men wearing bright white robes adorned with silk sashes. They are talking amongst themselves as they await the feast to come. The air is crisp, fresh and it feels like a celebration is about to start.
Smack dab in the middle of all these men sits my mom, comfortable and gleeful in a chair. She is neatly dressed, not sure in what, but she looks beautiful. As if I am watching from a branch on a tree, she looks up at me as smiles with great joy. She just beams, is radiant and happy.
She just does not stop looking at me and never stops smiling. I feel like she is safe. I did not want this moment to stop. I wanted it to last forever, to see her loving face and feel that sense of serenity. I reach out my arm to touch her but I cannot, she is too far away. Holding her hand is all I want to do. Eventually I awaken from this dream. I still see her in the garden, I still see her smiling. My heart still hurts, but not as much as before.
This most recent dream of mom told me that she is in heaven, for certain. God now has her, God cares for her. She will never suffer ever again.
I love you mom and may you be the angel who comes for me one day.
Peace and Blessings to you all!