Saturday, October 22, 2011
A Rebirth and a new place
It's been a while since I shared news about my status. My apologies as I have been moving, and well, I'm tired. Lot's of emotions moving out of my dear mom's home into an empty apartment. But it was time, and mom really wanted this for me. Love you mom.
Every morning for the past two years mom and I would enjoy our coffee together and catch up on the news. I would eat my oatmeal and for two hours or so, life was heavenly. Even if I was in pain or tired from chemo, we would still enjoy that time together. I would get to hear tid bits of stories from long ago about her childhood, or a rant about something important politically in the world. Mom holds back on nothing.
I really didn't want to leave, especially now that she is on dialysis. The house is too small and her plate is full with questions, worries, and concerns for her future. She needs time and space for peace now. I see her a lot anyway, so it won't be too bad. I just really miss her so much.
Now I'm in a secure apartment managed by a very kind woman who thinks of this complex as a community. I like that. I will include a photo in my blog when I get my furniture and pictures arranged. I found a small wooden table as a give-away, and am using that for my dining table. Mom was so generous to give me one of her couches and a living room side chair. My sister and her husband helped me move, thank you guys!!!!
It feels like a dorm room right now, not really homey.
Thanks to comcast and their evil doings, I have no television. I'm trying to look at this lack of television as an opportunity to reflect and pray more. It's probably a good thing at the end of the day. I miss my CNN and Hoda and Kathy though. No cooking channel, what's a girl to do? Ha. Thanks to Pat and Mandy for offering Hulu to help with the TV.....yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!
I just found out my niece passed a black belt flip test last night...............yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. Later today I hope to see my other niece at a performance in the zoo. The rest of the family is well overall, I wish we all lived in the same area, like when we were little kids. I really do.
On the medical front, my CA125 is 11 and my latest exam was normal. In 3 months I have a pelvic CT scan. My mammogram and breast MRI are good too, but I'm still seeking the opinion of a surgeon to consider a prophylactic mastectomy. Sigh. Still totally undecided, I just want to talk.
That's all for now. I really hope you are well. Peace and blessings and hugs and smiles to you.