Hello Friends,
First off God granted me a most undeserved assurance I could be able tolerate Taxol. I just learned that I accidentally ingested peanuts last Thursday. I can't wait to message my doctor. So it's possible I was not super-sick last week from Taxol. I am relieved because my options are few.
I am allergic to peanuts and it incapacitates me for 24 hours or more. You can only imagine all the GI issues, headaches dehydration and shortness of breath. My stomach is still very sensitive.
My ANC is also .5, almost at "I need wear a hazmat suit time", super low. I am allergic to neulasta, so it's actually a red alert issue.
Tonight God lead me to take another look at the ingredients of the granola bar I ate last week. I'm half blind and did not see that the almond bar also contains peanuts.
We had to hold off on Taxol this past Friday because my neutrophils are too low.
I am scheduled for toddler Taxol this coming Friday. I need my ANC to go up.
I have this silver-dollar size tumor on/in bladder dome. My cystoscopy is scheduled for this coming Tuesday. All I can say is I pray it doesn't hurt. I don't want to have to go through a radical surgery.
I'm a water baby, I need my water activities like I need air sometimes. My water time is prayer and reflection time; my persoal sanctuary. Literally. Radical surgeries would pry render me unable to be in my little sanctuary.
I was grateful to speak with my palliative care nurse last week. She has empathy and is my navigator to help with navigating my cross.
May dear Jesus use my suffering for His Glorious Will. Thank you Lord for tonights ray of Hope and Love. God help those in Ukraine.
Until again,
Servivorgirl
