Today I met with an intake specialist at Voc Rehab. My hope is that I will qualify for training and assistance with finding a job/new career. I have a lot of barriers, but also a lot of will. My biggest goal is to spend my life doing meaningful purposeful activity that helps others and provides me a modest sustainable income. I want to work from home because I have so many medical issues with my abdomen, nausea, fatigue and arthritis. I also want a home based career in case I do have a recurrence.
I am doing everything I can to be proactive and a good planner. If I have a home based career, I can manage my tasks and projects around my medical appointments and health problems. God forbid, but if cancer returns, I would have freedom to do some things from home while on chemo, if able INSTEAD of possibly losing my job completely due to extensive time off.
Only employers with 50 or more employees are required to honor Family Medical Leave Act. I just don't want to work in an office with lots of people playing office politics. I have no desire to "climb the corporate ladder". I don't even know if I'll be alive in two years. Nobody knows how long they will live, so why waste your precious life working for someone who dislikes you or hurts you somehow.
Plus, I have a weak immune system, so I don't want to be around a lot of people, I just don't.
I can't take those kinds of risks. Negative environments and high stress can aggravate cancer, I don't want any remnants of cancer to be aggravated in my body. I believe I have every right to find the optimum work situation. At least I'm going to try my best, that's all I can do.
I don't want to be a government burden, and I don't want to live in "the projects". Mom and I cannot live together forever, and she needs her life back. It has been 5 years since I have been able to live in an apartment because of poor finances.
One of my wishes before the Lord takes me is that I can at least have a studio apartment in a safe neighborhood, and feel some sense of dignity. Am I being selfish? I need space to re-grow, re-birth, re-ignite my senses. I want to be a positive influence for my family, not a drag.
I don't know, all I can say is that I am doing the best I can do.
Be Love
Hi Denise;
ReplyDeleteI don't know you but came across your blog as I researched financial help for a friend of mine with ovarian cancer. I am finishing treatment for breast cancer, and had an abundance of helpful sites. I was astounded at the lack of help I found for ovarian. but one seemed promising and I wanted to share it with you and it is the Raymond Wentz Foundation. The offer assistance for anytype of cancer. I hope you get some help. Your blog is thoughtful and poignant. God bless you as you go through this trial. You have been added to my prayers.