Sunday, August 21, 2011
chemo brain creates headache at work
As you may know, I have memory problems and get rattled with too much info too fast. I have a job that does not provide me printed references because I work in a completely virtual world. I am working with the assistance of DVR and a community neuro rehab therapist to help me retain my job and assist with accommodation requests.
My employer is aware that I have some cognitive challenges. Well, I made a mistke tonight, didn't realize the gravity of the mistake and that it was such a big mistake. I am so upset. I just can't remember everything and they don't give me enough time to re-read policies. I hate this, I hate this, I hate this.
For $12 per hour.
It's a golden job opportunity with a great company, but I can't do well because I can't keep up with all the restrictions and limits associated with not being allowed to have printed material in my work from
Just feeling zinged. I am trying so so hard to be a good employee. I feel demeaned and stupid.
How can anyone memorize hundreds of pages of policies? And I can't navigate the computer quickly enough on my small screen. I am requesting a larger monitor so I can have multiple windows open, so that I can keep the policy references up and ready to access. Seems logical right?
Just frustrated. I still have a 7mm stable tumor on my liver. Great to think I'll spend the rest of my life in low paying jobs constantly getting in trouble because I have a bad memory. Fine.
Sorry, all I can think about is that I'm going to get fired now.
Great, just what I need.